a piece of unpolished marble

i wear boots. heavy
steel toes. they are so heavy
that i have to drag my legs
forward.

so that when i take them off in the studio i can fly and soar in the sky.

it's a training for my dream.
to differentiate the distinctive feelings
between standing and flying.
between safely grounded and
freely soaring.

i feel safe with my boots.
in the studio and in the theatre i don't need my boots

because it's one of the rare
places that i feel completely safe in, even if it's a place of unknown. i think
that's what makes me feel safe.

wild horse. harness.
why did jesus carry the cross all the way to the top?
not because they made him, because by the time
he is taken off the cross he'll be strong and feel light enough to
float all the way back up to heaven.

that's what my boots do for me.

ahoj.

again it's been long. random writings during the past few months soon coming.

now, summer's resolution. yes.

A:
1. get a job.
or
B:
1. perform in a play.
2. finish 20 songs.
3. write a play.
4. keep up with my trainings.

it is not going to work i know, lists/plans never work for me.
i personally prefer list B.