Macau, or my room?

Fung suggested to go to Macau (a while ago actually). Well for those who don't really know what Macau is, go to www.google.com. I can only tell you it's pretty famous for casinos... Of course I really would like to get out of my room and get a life. But then it seems to be kind of expensive actually. 30€ round trip by boat. It's not like I gotta spend 1000€ on gambling on top of the boat ticket, and of course I don't have to spend a quid at all in the casino... I mean anyway it might be fun.

I have become a bit autistic since I have left the college... Okay, now definition-nazis don't shit on my head. I just mean I tend to reject social contacts with people. I really don't know why- is Hong Kong really not my place? Is there anything wrong with me? Or is it simply just too hot? Even I myself am a bit surprised by such a behaviour. I just don't understand. Maybe I am not used to living in a single room anymore. Thinking of that I think I cannot really live alone, completely. At least I need an animal or two, or maybe just something to play with- not neccessarily a human being, though. Most of the people I know got back into track of their used-to-be lives before they left for Norway. Some found something new to do, travelling around, visiting the people they have met in dear Flekke.

You might ask why don't I do the same. As the people who know me would know, I always say Hong Kong sucks whenever I talk about it or anything related to it. Well except the summer weather, it's partly because of the people. Some, whom I have been seeing for a few times, are fine- or else I won't really bother to, I guess? Those whom I have been talking to are also fine- that's related to what I was about to say. Yes I have been away for 2 long years and I honestly understand that I will never ever be able to catch up with some of the things going on among them. But that doesn't mean they can't keep in contact with me does it now? I am not complaining since it doesn't really matter for me, off I go and I will have a new life somewhere else soon. And, it's just weird to think that I have actually grown up in Hong Kong, while seeing people around me have nearly completely different life attitudes- at least I haven't seen too many who's my kind. Maybe I'm just another species. Maybe I'm just a wannabe. Maybe.

And yeah, some of you would wonder why don't I go out alone and stuff. If you are thinking about it, you really don't know me. Now think. My hair, 30+°C; 30+°C, my hair. By the way I have been living in Norway for two good long years (it's not like Flekke is in the north but still... Hong Kong has to be hotter than Flekke in any season i think...).

Oh, visiting people? Now here comes my biggest for my hatred towards my Hong Kong-ese identity- I AM SO BLOODY FAR AWAY FROM NEARLY EVERYONE ELSE, WHAT THE FUCK CAN I DO? A ticket from Hong Kong to Europe wouldn't really be cheap would it? This is a great pity that money just matters so damn much in the adult world. Why can't there be some cheap inventions, uh, like some high-speed transport bands or just REALLY cheap flights? Being an ignorant ragey (?) youth, of course I would not know what's the running cost of a inter-continental flight. But the prices are really ridiculous though... 1000€ for a Hong Kong-Oslo round trip? Yeah right. If I had time I would just have driven there instead. Sigh. Why does Hong Kong have to be so far away from everything else?

Why the heck am I still talking about the past?

I don't understand. What am I doing? What am I thinking about?

Suddenly someone whispered on the right at my back, softly into my ear, 'I think you miss the college, duh!'

Oh.