another recurring dream. i knew it was going to be a recurring one since the first time i dreamt of it. i remember it too well that it is not possible that i have/will only dream it once.

they are almost always the same in terms of the order of the venues. a tiny, narrow shopping mall of 3 stories, a zebra crossing where everyone from the mall has to take in order to really leave the district- except me, the dark and wide upward slope i always chose to take instead of the crossing- after the slope there was a fenced area, of the size of a car park roughly, then a building of about five stories, dark red at night-somewhat orange when lit, which is the dream's destination.

the malls all looked the same, it has been empty once, it has also been mad crowded or zombie-like drones infested. none could seem to see me i think. every time i was trying to get the heck out of the mall. i just felt like i had to- even though i had not bought anything even. the empty mall was fully in business, that was the strange thing; everyone in that packed mall was trying to go the exact opposite direction as i was, seemingly running away from something outside the mall; and in the zombie mall nothing was in business but yet people window(metal gate) shop and try to buy this and that. i think i always somehow woke up in that mall. i have dreamt of shopping malls a few times this summer- i never liked malls too much i have to say, especially those packed ones. there was a person who could see me from that mall of drones on the way out, and he was speaking in mandarin to me. i asked in cantonese why and he switched to cantonese. strange how my dreams have become a language cocktail. i heard and spoke others later on.

sometimes the crossing was empty but loaded with people waiting for that eternal red light to turn green so they can cross, sometimes it was simply empty, well lit, with a green light on but looking way too normal and safe. sometimes it is just in normal working order with normal people flow. that vaguely reminds me of a part of the street somewhere near where i live in hong kong. i had a night of drinking and got off the bus not knowing where i am because i thought i saw the building i live in- apparently there are a lot of look alikes. so i was walking for a bit and thought i should find a dark place and take a nap... and i did. after an hour or two i woke up, wasn't robbed. first thing i saw was that zebra crossing lit by the dim, yellow street lights. i always thing it is there i saw in the dream.

anyhow i always end up taking the other path which no matter how no one takes- that dark, upward slope. a strangely safe and warm feeling whenever i passed there. i think i should not feel that way but it happened to be a pleasant feeling. alone in the dark, walking upwards and not really knowing what is over the top- the best part of the recurring thriller- also the worst part knowing the cliché of the silence before storms. in the middle of the slope appeared the fenced area on the side. there are usually a flock of unexpected things locked up in there, animals, plants that move, people, cars, all identical. never bothered to walk towards the gate but one time i did. there were two people amongst the cars- the guy who spoke to me in mandarin and another mysterious guy. i told one of them to click their car-lock thing at random directions and the car that beeps is his. and i told another in english to get out of there safe and a couple other things about what i saw in the mall.

that wasn't the storm of course. the real storm was when i saw the dark red building. there was a bush by the front door and i swear i will not get close to that bush no matter what. there must be something inside- come on, late night, bush next to your front door? sometimes stray dogs popped out of the bush and i ran towards the front door, yelling at the windows begging one of them to tell me the code to unlock the door, i didn't remember if that worked. probably not. sometimes i push the doorbell and my cell would ring and was told that i am not allowed in anymore, and then random babies and kids will appear, first fiddling me as a huge plush toy then started eating me for some reasons. or even stranger, like last night, a huge meteor headed towards me and i woke up.

gigantic, red hot meteor.